obsession

yall know that I don't have any relation with him. Even just friend. Now im tryin to forget him with my own way. Before that, I called this 'obsession'.
Why?
I'm not really really love him. we weren't close, we're not close, and we won't be closer anyway.
I always think that it's easy to get him. I always pray to Allah to makes us close. I always revolve his name around my mind. I always look at him in the afternoon.
I always..........
I never get jealous with anyone else. It means I don't really really love him.
He runs away! He runs away to avoid me!
Thanks.
He was revive me from my obsession.
And he, still obsess me. Til I can get him.